Memories of our baby boy will never fade
| Published date | 30 June 2021 |
| Date | 30 June 2021 |
From the day she was born, Kelly and husband Alan have talked with Emily in the most natural of ways about Noah, the baby son they lost.
There were two bears within the Sands memory box the couple were given on September 25, 2015 - the day Noah was born.
One lies with him in St Joseph's Cemetery in Airdrie, and the other is among the other toys and books now in Emily's room that Alan and Kelly had stored in the loft in excited anticipation of their unborn son's first Christmas.
"Emily decided to call it Noah Bear. It's her way of processing the whole thing," said Kelly.
"We have our way of including Noah. And this is her way - by including him in her play."
" Other than prolonged morning sickness, Kelly'sfirst pregnancy was the stuf fof text books.
Her gran died after a short illness a week before her due date, and labour started during the funeral.
Advised by the hospital to remain at home until contractions became more regular, Kelly mentioned at an appointment with the midwife the following day that she'd noticed reduced movement from her baby.
Together, they listened to his heartbeat in the womb. The midwife assured Kelly her baby's head was engaged, everything was fine, and she was well on her way.
After two days, the contractions were growing stronger, but Kelly wasn't detecting the usual movement.
"I called the hospital and asked how long is it normal to have no movement," said Kelly.
"When I said the last time I felt him move was last night, they told me to come in straight away."
" The midwife at Wishaw General Hospital set up the equipment to listen to the heartbeat.t. he drumming sound they heard, though, was not that of the baby's heart - it was Kelly's pulse. The midwife tried a different Doppler. Still no sound.
"She tried to keep me at ease, saying it's just the way he's lying," said Kelly.
""he registrar came into do a scan.
My husband said at that point, he knew something was wrong. In my head, I genuinely didn't think for a minute that something was seriously wrong. I suppose it was my brain's way of protecting myself.
"She [the registrar] said he was lying at a funny angle and she needed to get the consultant. I thought the consultant would find the heartbeat. How could I have been so naive?
""he consultant had a look and sat the scanner down. She didn't say anything. My husband started to cry."
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