I am ashamed of my troubled past

Published date24 April 2024
Publication titleDaily Star (England)
I ripped off friends, hurt my parents and behaved like a selfish oaf

I'm nearly 30 and in a fantastic relationship with a woman who has turned my life around.

Suddenly I'm sober and seeing with clear eyes.

She's made me accept how selfish and cruel I was as a youth. I used to drink, steal, and make my Mum and Dad's life a misery.

I used an army of women for casual sex and let down mates who (stupidly) trusted me.

My first employer nearly went under because I stole so much stock from him. How I avoided prosecution I'll never know.

I last spoke to my mum in 2019 at my grandad's funeral. I turned up late and drunk, and she was furious. During the wake, at a local, I drank like a fish and insulted various family members.

In the end I hooked up with a distant cousin (who was equally sloshed) and we bonked, very loudly, in the pub toilet. My dad went nuclear? Then I tried to fight another cousin and steal a phone for a laugh. I still feel so ashamed.

My new partner is all about fresh starts. She says I have to apologise to everyone I've ever hurt or let down - otherwise I'll never move on or learn to love myself. But how can I own up when I've been such an ass?

She keeps asking when I'm going to introduce her to my folks. But how can I when she doesn't know the half of what I did?

The truth of the matter is that I'm a coward. I'm still too frightened and ashamed to confront my shabby past.

JANE SAYS: I agree that asking for a series of meetings with your family and all the...

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